They told us
that if the boys
were mean to us
it meant they liked us.
So from a when I was
a small flower not yet bloomed
I equated lust
and love to desire
and meanness.
The first time
he called me stupid,
and yelled in my face
I thought it was love.
The first time
he told me that I
was worthless
I accepted it as normal.
When he called
me fat
I thought it was normal
and I made myself believe
he meant it in a good way.
When he threw
things and got angry
and scared me,
I thought it was because he cared about me.
When he tore
me down
to bits of nothingness and
ripped my petals off of me
I told myself that he was mean because he loved me.
If they had told me
that boys being mean
to girls
was wrong,
and that true love
lets you bloom to your
full flowery potential
maybe I would have walked away sooner.
Amazing. I never would have made the connection. I wonder how many other women have been caight out in this way, but not consciously known the cause…
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It’s something I was thinking about the other day and it just sort of made sense to me, it all clicked
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I love it when something like that happens.
suffering +
wisdom = poetry (for some of us) 🙂
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Very insightfully linked. I never looked at it that way but you are spot on. Great poem 🙂
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Thank you! When I sort of made the connection for myself it was a huge “aha moment”
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I can imagine. I had the same thought as I read it. Nicely done.
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